What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right ? Sometimes I wish it would just kill me. If this was so.. I should be the strongest person on the planet. I should be so trim and fit and no feelings whatsoever, but I do. By all means my life is not the worst my children are healthy they have there issues and this is sorta hard because I have made it that way at times by my own decisions, other things are not my fault they just seem to keep flying at me like I'm in a batting cage trying to dodge balls, but I keep getting smacked one after another to the point I don't know If i can keep getting up.
So where did that saying come from anyways? Some person who has it all ?
Would money make my life easier - maybe a little would it make all my problems go away absolutely not.
Would having the perfect mate make my life easier - maybe it would make my stress level a little bit more manageable if I felt like someone was there to back me up and catch me when I fall but not everyone is perfect.
Would having a huge family that understands whats going on in my life and that didn't seemed so consumed with their own lives help. I think so..... I feel all alone and I feel like I'm failing my daughter once again and that my family is failing me.
Thank you Insurance company for denying my daughter a feeding chair..
Thank you Secondary insurance for denying my daughter a feeding chair.
Thanks to a program I applied to for kids with autism and special needs for denying my daughter an iPad when she clearly had enough votes but it went to a FRIEND of the owners site. * But thank you for giving away iPad to kids that need them *
Thank you State of WV and SSI for telling me I make too much money - anything over working at McDonald's is too much.
Sometimes you just get tired of asking and seeking for help, people have abused the system so much that when a real child, adult or elderly person really need it. THEY DON"T GET IT.
My plea - if anyone knows of any resources please point me in the right direction. I think I have tried all avenues but you never know. There isn't anything I won't do to give my daughter EVERYTHING.
I have heard of grants to get sensory toys or a sensory playground or room , technology equipment etc.
Monday is here again, how does time fly while your having fun but crawl when your not. I miss Noel all week long while she is gone at school ; she's my baby girl and only 4 years old but yet I have to make a choice I will have to live with -the choice to send her to a school two hours away so that she doesn't have to ride in a vehicle 4 hours a day plus school for 8 hours....Whewwwww that's a lot on a baby that's a lot on a parent. I get her back on the weekends and they fly by so fast , I'm so happy school is almost out and she will be home all summer long.
Just missing my baby girl, I still have my other girls at home but its no comparison to having all of my girls home with me at once. Kendall and Giuliana miss Noel when she is not home too, they ask when sissy is coming home our house is not a home when we are all not there to share it together.
Ive been asked about my Wish List ( Donate ) Button up to the right of my blog - this button was put here a while ago. If you have been with me since the start of this blog- It was my very intention to take Noel to China to get stem cells to help her eyes Ive since realized people that don't know or haven't experienced what life is like and the challenges we face day to day don't actually know or don't believe in the therapy or are hesitant to help. I've put this button there to help with any of the trips, therapies, special needs toys , equipment etc that Noel may need. This account is strictly for Noel and the things she may need- what makes a company charge outrageous amounts for a child that needs things different.